Content Warning: themes of illness, death
Sam J Grudgings – Errors of the Human Body
November 2006 & there is rabbit hole ridden scrubland
in place of your formerly human body. A diagnosis is an omen.
You are learning what it is to be precocial. The diseases
of lagomorphs are well documented, psychopomps of prophecy
that they are. They die in spirals. Hurrying to convey the weight
of their lesions to crowds. Some tumours contain teeth - dying
a smile in the bruise dark of a bodies fading Some futures are a given. A body
is a no-dimensional idea until it is observed, at which point it falls
victim to mortality. Your god is a callous remnant of the unrequited plea
to escape gravity. Skin sloughs from bodies & walks its own path.
A warren of names sheds the colony of holes. Call this freedom
if you must. Raw is the body with empty. Pink is the flesh, vulnerable
to scrubland, root systems are addicted to holding the mantle of the body
together. To them it is living. We allow microclimates to broker cauls &
wildfire across the faces of newborns. Birthing is the price
for knowing. A body can be born with a body already growing inside.
Actions have biomass. There is a stream trickling from the incision in the
rabbit body that will nurture the land. The rabbit must die to achieve
its purpose. To become a river is no bad thing. To become human
one must give the Spring its due. An absence cauterised in place of belief is a puzzle.
Lucky rabbit paw you, lame of your own too much. Stertor rapture.
Call this escape if you must. Culling season leaving its long red of wrecking ecosystems
for the stars. The body is a source. The body is heralding all anaemic puzzles that challenge it.
Wracking its skin of fathom & biome, refusing to be so displaced by name.
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Paranormal investigator & erotic doomsday prophet, Sam J Grudgings a queer poet from Bristol shortlisted for the Outspoken Poetry Prize 2020. His debut collection The Bible II, investigating addiction, loss and the masculine urge to fight or fuck god, is out now with Verve Poetry Press, His pamphlet The Nation’s Saddest Love Poems is out in August 2023 with Broken Sleep Books.
Photograph: Stone-Faced by Sylvia Santiago
Sylvia Santiago creates with words, images, and combinations of the two. Her work appears in Cutbow Quarterly, Ellipsis Zine, Harpy Hybrid Review, and elsewhere. Find her on Twitter: @sylviasays2